Friday is the best

Friday is the best, am I right or am I right?  It’s the last day of the work week and you have the whole weekend ahead of you.  Amazing.  I’m excited, can you tell?  I’m also absolutely exhausted from the week which makes days off work even sweeter.  Here are a couple snapshots from lately:

Before school workouts have begun!  I’m stoked for my twice a week 15 minute workouts.  We use light dumbbells and do a mix of strength training, cardio, and body weight exercises.


These are my new favorite capris – so comfortable! From Soybu.

On Monday, we did four sets of lunges, and my legs were TOAST on Tuesday and Wednesday.  Whenever I do lunges for the first time in awhile, I always get the best burn the following two days.  I love it.  Lunges are probably my favorite exercise.  We also did core work, tricep kickbacks, bicep curls, and a couple other moves that I’m not remembering right now.

Audrey came over for a little last night.  She was all over the peanut butter blueberry muffins.  She had two and a half, and shared nicely with William who also loves them.

sharing muffin

They are seriously hilarious together.  Audrey had William cracking up so hard he literally fell over.  I bathed them and they played together in their pajamas before bed which just melts my heart.  Especially after baths, their hair is crazy curly and they look so much alike.  They’re basically brother and sister. :)

We’ve been savoring the amazing weather St. Louis has been having.

park 815

Lots of park dates which continue to get more and more fun for William.  He actually kept his headband (well, warrior band, really) on which I was digging.  That is, until someone commented, “She’s really fast!”  Ummmm boys can wear headbands, too.  And he had baseballs on his shirt.  Total boy.

So William has been waking up earlier than normal this week.  We’re talking 4:45 in the morning.  When we head to school which is just five minutes away, he fell asleep in the car three different mornings this week!  Not that I minded the extra snuggles…

sleepy baby

But I’d really love if he’d sleep just a tad later.

Whatever though…. it’s Friday!  Weeeeeeee!


Happy Friday! What are your weekend plans?

flourless peanut butter blueberry muffins recipe

Packing William’s lunchbox this year has proved to be challenging.  He eats breakfast, lunch, and two snacks at school, so trying to provide some variety can be difficult.  Plus, as you other mommas know, toddlers can be PICK-Y when it comes to food.  When I find something he likes (for the moment), he gets it everyday.  Well, for awhile he was getting scrambled eggs everyday since they’re healthy and he loves them.  Then, his teacher told me there was an egg allergy in his class, so I couldn’t do scrambled eggs anymore.  Argh.  Time to get creative.

I ended up making flourless peanut butter blueberry muffins which not only served as a perfect breakfast for him, but a delicious snack for me.  I’ve written time and time again about how busy the beginning of the school year is.  Morning workouts have begun twice a week before school.  I wake up most mornings at five o’clock and eat breakfast around six.  At 8:40am when the workout is over, I need something to refuel and I need something quick before the kiddos arrive at 8:50.  Enter flourless peanut butter blueberry muffins.  I told you, they’re perfect all around – for breakfast or as a pre or post workout snack.

flourless pb blueberry muffins recipe

When I heard there was an egg allergy in William’s class, I asked if I had to avoid eggs completely.  His teacher said no, just don’t do scrambled or hard-boiled eggs.  I was still allowed to cook with them.  New breakfasts included french toast or peanut butter toast.  Both of those required me to make them the morning of, and I am really trying to get better at meal prep to speed my mornings along.  Over the weekend, I rummaged through my kitchen and created these muffins with ingredients I had on hand: bananas, eggs, peanut butter, and blueberries.  The result?  Faaaaaantastic!

flourless pb blueberry muffins tin

They’re light and moist and packed with nutrition.  Eggs and peanut butter provide a good dose of protein to keep you full and build muscle.  Bananas are a great source of natural carbohydrates and contain a lot of potassium.  Blueberries are loaded with antioxidants.  There is no added refined sugar; they are sweetened with honey.

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ebeggs flourless muffins

Flourless Peanut Butter Blueberry Muffins Recipe

~makes 12 muffins


  • 1 cup peanut butter
  • 2 bananas, mashed
  • 3 Eggland’s Best eggs
  • 1 cup blueberries
  • 1/4 cup honey
  • 1 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
  • 1/2 teaspoon cinnamon


  1. Mix all ingredients (except blueberries) until smooth.
  2. Stir in blueberries.
  3. Pour batter in greased muffin tin.
  4. Bake at 350 for 20-25 minutes.

flourless pb blueberry muffins

Make these for your toddler, kids, or yourself and have a healthy snack or meal on hand all the time.  Pin them for later – they’re so easy to make over the weekend to set yourself up with healthy choices for the week.  Let me know how you like them!

What snack do you always have on hand to help make healthy choices?

This post is sponsored by FitFluential on behalf of Eggland’s Best.

Triathlons are hard

Triathlons are hard.  That’s no secret, and you’d think I would have learned my lesson after the Kirkwood triathlon, but I went for it again this past weekend.  The Kirkwood triathlon was just the second one I’d ever done and it was four years after my first.  Finding time to train was difficult, but I kept telling myself it was short – a sprint triathlon.  I struggled big time during the race.  However, I learned there are several additional sprint triathlons in the St. Louis area, and I do love racing – no matter how hard it is.  I signed up for my second sprint triathlon of the summer, but training didn’t go much better.  In fact, it went worse since school started up again and I literally only had time to train once on the weekends.

Eh, it’s another sprint, I’ll be fine, I kept telling myself.  Well Sunday morning came, my car was packed, and I was ready for the Sunset Hills triathlon.  I set my station up, got my numbers drawn on, and anxiously awaited the start time.

triathlon before

The distances were similar to Kirkwood: 300 yard swim, 11.8 mile bike, 3 mile run.  I was actually really excited for the 300 yard swim compared to the 400 yard swim in Kirkwood.  The swimming really wiped me out last time, so I thought I’d have more energy this time around.  But… I hadn’t swam at all since the last triathlon.  Definitely not ideal.  We were lined up by our numbers which was determined by our swim time that we entered when signing up for the race.  They were very strict in the order which you started since it correlated to your chip start time.

This felt a lot different than Kirkwood.  While we waited to get in the pool at Kirkwood, the race directors were telling us about the course, explaining proper race etiquette, and pumping us up.  This time, it was much more serious though the racers were still friendly.  Racers dropped in the pool every 15 seconds.  It was a serpentine style swim.  I ended up getting passed by three swimmers which was frustrating because I hate getting passed.  (I’m a wee bit competitive, can you tell?)  I finished and trotted toward the transition area to get ready for the bike portion.

The 11.8 mile bike was a three-loop course.  I thought looping twice during Kirkwood wasn’t great, but three times really stunk. I would much rather do one long loop and not know what is coming.  This course was HARD.  It was crazy hilly, both uphills and downhills.  The downhills were so steep that I held on for dear life and hoped I wouldn’t fly off.  Directly after one particularly downhill was an immediate uphill.  You had momentum for the first little bit, but obviously that wore off and then you were in the middle of a very steep hill.  I saw quite a few people fall off their bikes on this part, and several people were walking their bikes up.  My goal was to stay on my bike the whole time which I did.  That was a positive, but the biking was still so tough.  “On your left!” was a phrase I heard way too often.

Then came the run.  My legs were jello and the run, too, was a three-loop course.  Argh.  I tried to get out of my own head and stay positive, but the run was crazy hilly, as well!!  Even the immediate downhill was so steep that you had to exert more energy making sure you didn’t eat the asphalt rather than letting gravity do it’s thing and embracing the downhill.  There were quite a few uphills, in addition.  Sadly, I walked a few times.  My goal for running is never to walk, so that was a major fail.  And I didn’t break my under-30 miunte goal either.  I told you, this triathlon was rough.

As much as I’m complaining about the race, it really was my own fault for not going into it properly trained.  And I didn’t feel like dying as much as I did during the Kirkwood one.  You better believe I was happy and proud to have finished, despite my slow times.  Now I can say I’ve done three triathlons!  That’s an accomplishment!

The after photo:

triathlon after

Still alive.  Still standing.  Still smiling.

Even though I’m not impressed or proud with my times, I’ll share them anyway:

  • Swim Time: 7:50
  • Tran 1: 3:29
  • Bike Time: 1:04:57
  • Tran 2: 2:52
  • Run Time: 30:54
  • Finish Time: 1:50:04

All in all, I was much slower (except for the swim) than Kirkwood, even my transitions.  Hey, at least it gives me a goal to beat next summer!

Have you ever been disappointed / frustrated with your race results?

Surprise 30th Birthday Party

This weekend.  Wow!  I’m speechless.  And anyone who was at my Surprise 30th Birthday Party will tell you the same thing.  So here’s how it went down.  I had lunch plans on Saturday, and Stephanie told me that Audrey had been talking about playing with William all week.  I dropped William off at her house.  She wasn’t there, and Phil said she was just out grabbing food.  I went to the restaurant, was led to a room, and SURPRISE!  20 of my closest friends and family members were there.  I was shocked, to say the least.  And speechless. I think I’m still in shock.

30th birthday party

I have absolutely no idea how my mom pulled it off.  This has been a crazy past couple of weeks, yet somehow she managed to plan a surprise birthday party and execute it so beautifully, as she does with any event she hosts.  I’ve got a few snapshots to share with you, but really no pictures can capture the love I felt from my family and friends who came out to celebrate me.

First of all, these:

personalized m&ms

Yes, they are personalized M&Ms with William’s face on them!  The back read, “We love you!” and “Mommy’s 30th B-day.”  Everyone went home with a tin.

My mom (and my sister) know how to decorate.  I missed that gene.  In fact, the owner of the restaurant asked my mom if he could take pictures of how she did the room for their catering menu.


She had large mason jars filled with different cake, cookie, and brownie mixes at every place.  These were part of the party favors.  I got birthday cake cookies, of course!

Linking up with Katie and Erin.

The rest of the party favors:

party favors

Mini mason jars with Hershey kisses and chocolate covered pretzels.  A mini chalkboard with Happy 30th Birthday, Lindsay! and two dozen beautiful roses, and a cutout dance photo of me when I was little also decorated the table.

The appetizers the ladies munched on while waiting for my arrival:


The Surprise 30th Birthday Party was held at Cooper’s Hawk.  The food and service is AWESOME!  The place settings:

place setting

Personalized menu cards and all.

A shot of my playgroup mommas:

playgroup moms

It’s amazing to have a strong group of ladies with babies close in age.  Not only because it’s nice to be able to relate to other mommas with children going through similar phases and ask questions, but also because our babies will grow up together.  I’ve loved getting to know these women over the last year and a half and am excited for our friendship to continue.

My sister Stephanie:


The one who does anything for anyone at the drop of a hat.  She took all the pictures and as usual I was jealous of her outfit (maybe I can borrow it? lol).  Really truly though, I admire my sister for so many reasons.  Despite our sisterly bickering, she is there no matter what.  She’s an amazing sister, daughter, friend, mother, wife, photographer, and more.  And she’s crazy smart.  Whenever I tell that to people, they tell me I’m smart, too.  And I’m always like, no but she’s REALLY smart.  And she is.

These three women:

steph mama mom

These are the most important women in my life.  They’ve made me who I am today and they inspire me to be a better woman everyday.  They’ve always been there for me, during hard times lifting me up and celebrating even the smallest accomplishments.  Strong women have been present in my family ever since I can remember with my great Grandma Rose and each of these three ladies carry on the tradition.  I only hope I can grow into half the women they are!

Mom, thank you from the bottom of my heart.  This party, while completely unnecessary, meant so much and was such a warm reminder of how much I’m loved.

To my friends and family: Thank you.

Here’s to my thirties! xoxo

Have you ever had a surprise party thrown for you?

5 things

HELLO, FRIDAY!  Sorry, I can’t contain my excitement, I’ve been looking forward to this day since…. Monday.  Long week over here, and more than ready for the weekend!  Let’s do a 5 things post today, and we’ll keep things nice and simple over here.  Pictures are lacking, except for baby William (as usual), so we’ll go with a list-style post.

5 things I’m looking forward to:

  1. Spending time with my parents this weekend.  I haven’t spent nearly enough time with them lately, so I’m really hoping for some quality time.
  2. Sprint triathlon on SUNDAY. Yes, in TWO DAYS! Wish me luck….
  3. Getting my hair done next weekend. Much needed.
  4. Before school workouts beginning next week. My school is awesome and the teachers workout together twice a week. It’s even more awesome that we get to wear workout clothes all day long.
  5. My little brother and his wife coming in town next weekend!

5 things I want:

  1. SLEEP!  And a lot of it. Uninterrupted would be great (WILLIAM!).
  2. To get my nails done.
  3. For my house to get deep cleaned and organized. I’m the worst at that.
  4. To go shopping. I don’t need anything, but #retailtherapy.
  5. Health and happiness for everyone I love.

5 things I’m loving:

William is the obvious answer here, but he gets his own 5 things section which is why I’m skipping him here.  In case you were wondering.  Which you probably weren’t.

  1. My friends. They’re the best, seriously.  I get daily phone calls and texts from my best friends about the many events going on in my life.  I feel loved.
  2. Hyaluronic acid.  With as tired as I’ve been lately, this stuff really helps to brighten up my face.
  3. The weekend!  The beginning of the school year is SO busy and I welcome downtime with open arms.
  4. A clean dog. Zoey is an itchy dog (lots of allergies) and does better with frequent baths.  I used to bathe her 1-2 times a week, but hadn’t been recently.  She got bathed last night and is so much better!
  5. Soybu.  I won an Instagram giveaway and got an entire outfit and I’m in love.  They’re my new favorite capris.

5 things I’ve been eating:

  1. Dips. My team at school and I all brought in dips on Monday to share.  We ate them for three days straight which was awesome since we didn’t have to think about packing lunch.  And who doesn’t love dips?
  2. Ice cream.  Specifically, Ted Drewes since it keeps appearing in my freezer.
  3. Watermelon. Can’t ever get enough in the summer.
  4. Love Grown Foods hot oats. These saved me when I wasn’t feeling well as it was pretty much the only thing I could stomach.
  5. Sunflower seed butter.  William digs it, too.

5 things (pictures, but I have to stay with the theme) of William:

1.  Foam rolling


Now if only he could get his momma to spend some time foam rolling or stretching.  My flexibility has gone out the window.  I need yoga class, really.  No time though.  I wonder where William gets this sudden urge to foam roll from?  😉

2.  Before school cuteness

school 815

And maybe his pants have gotten a little too small.  But hey, baby boy capris are totally a thing… Right?

3.  Pizza face


I’ve been making pizza with Trader Joe’s whole wheat dough, marinara, and cheese, and William has been LOVING it!  As evidenced by the sauce all over his face.  And his onesie reads, “Challah back.” #jewishhumor :)



William has been really into reading lately, which of course makes his school teacher momma very happy!  His two current favorites are Brown Bear, Brown Bear, What Do You See? and Llama Llama Zippity Zoom.  They’re they only books that he will read or wants me to read to him.  Over and over again.  Literally, sometimes five times in a row.  Hey, at least he’s reading!

5.  My favorite – black and white bath photo

bath 815

Don’t let the cuteness fool you!  This little stinker (pun intended) has been pooping in the tub every.single.night.  He thinks its funny, and I do not.

That’s it.  That’s all I’ve got for you today.  Five lists with five things each.  Bring on the weekend!

Choose a topic and tell me five things!

Non Toxic August Specials

Is it Friday yet?  I try to stay positive, but this week has wiped me out.  I woke up Tuesday morning feeling absolutely sick, so I had to call into work – something that usually only happens once or twice a year.  I slept the great majority of the day and night, and felt mostly better yesterday, but had to play catch up at school.  I still felt run down, but have been going to bed earlier, and am getting my energy back.  It’s amazing what sleep (or lack of) will do for you, am I right or am I right?

So just wanted to pop in today and share the Non Toxic August Specials before the month is over.  I’ve been getting tons of emails inquiring about them and I think it’s one of the best I’ve seen yet, so definitely hop on it while it’s still available!  Don’t forget, I do offer free shipping, so email me when you’re ready to place your order.

As you know, I’m an Ava Anderson Non Toxic Independent Consultant.  I’ve slowly switched my entire skin care over to AANT, and am loving it.  Each month, I’ve added a couple new products to try, and as I use them, I realize they’re keepers.  Ava Anderson is overtaking my bathroom counter!


My newest obsessions are the avaSKIN moisturizing mask and the avaSKIN night serum.  I bought the blemish stick, but I’ve literally never used it since my skin is so clear from my new routine.

Last month, I purchased the avaSKIN hyaluronic acid.  I use it every morning before moisturizing and it really brightens up my skin.  This month, you can get it for FREE with any $95 order or more.  This is the second month in a row that the special item is something I bought the last month haha.  Well, now I’ll be stocked up!  I’ve been using it over a month now, and have barely made a dent in the bottle.  These products go a long way because they’re so pure.

hyaluronic acid aant

I love that the hyaluronic acid protects against the UVB rays because, even though I constantly wear SPF, I’m outside a lot.  It’s an all around great product and it’s never too early to be proactive in protecting and taking care of your skin!  This pairs perfectly with the night serum too!

And since there were over 1,000 new consultants that joined in July (yes, 1,000+!!!), Ava Anderson created this awesome August only deal.  It’s a FREE “rewards-start now” product pack (almost a $75 value!) when you have two parties of $300+ in the first 30 days (not hard to do!).  Pretty sweet.

aant august special

And then because it’s August and it’s back to school time, here’s the back to school essentials poster, as well.  Something for everyone.

aant back to school

There ya have it.  You’re welcome. :)

Truthfully, the avaSKIN and the avaBABY are my absolutely favorite lines from Ava Anderson.  Without a doubt, they surpass any other brands I’ve used, not to mention they’re completely and truly non toxic and organic, which means I don’t have a worry in the world when using them on myself and baby William.

Check it all out HERE and email me for free shipping.  I do offer free shipping out of my own pocket because I believe it’s worth it and I want to get the products in your hands and make you an Ava Anderson lover, too!

What products have you been loving in August?

nothing can dim the light

Oh life. Life is busy and we all have a lot going on.  Lately, especially, this rings true for me.  Instead of going into detail right now and dwelling on situations that may not be the best or in my control, let’s focus on the positive, the light of our lives and move forward.  I came upon a quote that struck a chord and wanted to share in today’s short and sweet post:

“Nothing can dim the light which shines from within.”

-Maya Angelou

first day of school 2015

It was the first official day of school for William yesterday.  Yes, he had been going these past couple weeks as my own school started, but technically he was attending “camp.”  This is the real deal now – school in the toddler room.  While it saddens me to have to be away from him, I know he is in good hands, surrounded by his friends and wonderful teachers, and learning all day long.  He’s turning into such the little boy.  Everyday I ask myself what happened to my little baby.  While he’ll always be my little baby, he’s growing up right before my very eyes.  He brings me an immense amount of happiness and I’m one proud momma.

Going back to Maya Angelou’s quote, “Nothing can dim the light which shines from within.”  Part of why this resonated with me is that happiness must come from within.  Happiness is the light, and nothing can dim in if you are happy within.  You feel me?  As much happiness as William brings me, I know I have to find the strength within myself to stand on my own in this crazy thing called life.  Everything else falls into place once happiness is achieved.

And that’s my spiel for today.

Be happy.

Like this little man.

first day of school2015

What makes you happy?

busy weekend

This was a busy, busy weekend.  It was a good weekend, just crazy busy.  As I sit here on Sunday evening, I’ve got the laundry finishing up, William’s lunch is packed for tomorrow, and I’ve got a bowl of Ted Drewes Reese’s frozen custard beside me.  I don’t have a ton of pictures from the weekend, just a few snapshots.

By Friday evening I was wiped from my first work week and crashed hard.  William, of course, was up bright and early on Saturday.  One of my friends / coworkers got married over the weekend.  It was a beautiful ceremony and reception; both venues were new to me and absolutely gorgeous.  The bride was stunning and we all had a lot of fun being together outside of work.


I wore my bridesmaid’s dress from Justin and Dana’s wedding, and was happy to wear it again.  That doesn’t happen often with bridesmaids dresses.

Sunday was super busy.  I realize now my weekend up until this point doesn’t even sound that busy, but it sure felt like it was haha.  William and I visited with my parents on Sunday morning and I did some meal prep for the week.  Then, I went to the park for a run and bike ride.  The next sprint triathlon I am doing is this coming weekend and I’ve done less training for this than my last one, so I was happy to put in some work yesterday, despite the fact that temperatures topped 90 and the good ole St. Louis humidity was rocking.  I ran with a friend of mine which definitely pushed me faster than if I were on my own.  My goal these days (being pretty out of shape and all) is to get under ten-minute miles.  And you better believe me when I say I started walking the second my Garmin beeped at three miles.


I was so unbelievably hot and sweaty after.

run park

Couldn’t even think of a better pose to do than just stand there (and try not to die).  Then we decided to go on a quick bike ride after.  It wasn’t long due to some time constraints, but at least I trained two sports at once finally.  Next weekend should be interesting.  I’m banking on the fact that the swim is only 300 instead of 400…

Linking up with Katie and Erin.

After the workout, William and I picked up Audrey and headed to the pool.  It was a bummer because the baby pool was closed.  It made the pool more challenging than relaxing with the two of them, but I was still happy to be enjoying the summer weather.  They were both so busy at the pool that I couldn’t take any pictures since I obviously had a to keep a very close eye on them.  They (and me) were exhausted after, so we came home and ate dinner immediately.  Baked chicken for William, macaroni and cheese for Audrey, and Chipotle for me. :)

I plopped the two of them in the bathtub to scrub them clean and let them play.

aud bath

Audrey loooooves taking care of her baby William.  She wants to help with everything.  Washing his hair, his back, his legs, his toesies, drying him, getting his diaper on, picking out his pajamas… literally everything.  Last night she actually said, “I wish I could just keep William forever!”  I hope that love never changes.

That’s it.  Writing out my whole weekend definitely made it seem like I was not as busy as I felt, but man oh man I felt like we were.  No slowing down now, off to start the work week, my first full one.  Let’s hope it’s a good one!

Did you have a busy weekend?  What was the best part?

just a reminder

What a week!  Hello, Friday!  Anyone (everyone?) else glad the weekend is finally here?  It’s been a week, that’s for sure.  First day of school, my thirtieth birthday, and a whole bunch of other stuff going on.  As the week comes to a close, I’m keeping this post short and simple today with just a reminder or two…

bath happy aug15

and a gorgeous bath picture of this guy to bring a smile to your face like he does mine

Just a reminder to…

  • be grateful for your health
  • smile at those around you
  • say a prayer for those less fortunate
  • live life with an open heart
  • offer healing to those who are sick
  • stay positive even when times are tough
  • hug those you love
  • remember “this too” shall pass
  • use good manners always
  • don’t be afraid to take risks
  • believe in yourself

That is all.  Simple enough, right?

What reminder can you offer today?

PS: I have an awesome giveaway going on Instagram!

it was a good day

….and just like that, I’m 30!  Yesterday was a whirlwind of a day.  It was the first day of school which is always hectic and crazy busy.


I’m excited for what the new school year brings and eager to get to know my students.  All 24 of them.  Big class with lots of energy!  It took the majority of the day just to get organized with all the school supplies.  Today, we begin academics.  No wasting time!

There was a special delivery for me at school…

chocolate covered cookies

Chocolate covered Oreos were such a fun and delicious surprise!  Best friends ever!

When I got home, I had another surprise waiting…


Fresh flowers from one of my very best friends!

The day was wonderful.  My team ordered lunch and got birthday cake ice cream sandwiches.  I was given heartfelt gifts and a pizza cutter which only a select few of you will understand why that’s so funny.  I was showered with tons of love from everybody that matters most and then some.  I have a lot going on right now, so it was really nice to hear from so many people.  Words speak volumes.

After school, William and I headed over to my sister’s house because she wouldn’t let me not do anything on my thirtieth birthday.

steph birthday

Even if it’s “just” pizza and cookie cake (hey, nothing wrong with that!), she made sure I felt special on my birthday.  Sisters are amazing, but especially mine.  Always going out of her way for other people, as if her life isn’t busy enough, there’s always time for me.

And birthday crowns.  Definitely should be mandatory for all ages.

birthday crowns

Thanks for all the love. xoxo